Dating
in an odd way, i used to be relieved of being part of the 3% of afab people who weren't assaulted. i was just glad i was never seen as a target for that sort of thing, that i was safe. but now, thinking abt my life, i think i might actually be part of the 97%. but its so confusing-
i was dating my abusive boyfriend at the time, around september 2022. we were online. he wanted to video call with the both of us naked and masturbating. i accepted out of fear that he'd try guilt-tripping me into it or smth, like he was prone to doing abt other topics. and we did the call, and i showed him Everything. and just thinking abt it makes me wanna throw up. i wish i never did that. i still feel dirty.
was i a part of the 97% after all? i dont know how im gonna live with not repressing this. im a minor and i dont think my parents knew much abt that boyfriend at all, and theyd just tell me to let it go because thats always their reaction when im upset over something in my past. i dont know what to do, please help