Mental Health
I feel so sad all the time and I get angry easily. I’m 13 but went through precocious puberty which is just early puberty. I hit it around 5.5 and got my first period a year before my 8th birthday. I stopped growing at 12 and now permanently stuck at 5’2. It pains me to see all the kids I knew in elementary school start developing and getting taller. I feel so ahead yet so behind. They’re growing up together while I was forced to grow up alone. I’m homeschooled now and I feel even more alone. I don’t have energy anymore and I get up at 1-2pm and sometimes don’t leave bed until 3-4pm. I have no friends to talk to and even the ones I consider friends, barely talk to me and one of my eldest friends (they’re 16) and I’ve known them for 4 years atp, I feel like we’ve drifted bc they grew up and they’re dry now. We don’t play Roblox together anymore and they have their own life. I get they’re busy with studying and stuff due to being held at high expectations and being in all AP, honors, and IB classes but I miss us a lot. I feel like I’m destined to be alone. I don’t know what to do anymore and I can’t talk about it with my parents. I try making friends on Snapchat but they end up just trying to get nudes from me (which I send majority of the time bc i think I’ll have someone to talk to). I haven’t been eating a lot either n I constantly stress about the calorie numbers. I feel bad if I eat over 1300 (which I do anyway) and I feel the fat growing on me.