Our Community
Family
I feel really hopeless and helpless. My parents hate me. They have me blocked and won’t even talk to me. I want nothing more than to be close with my parents. To have a relationship with my mommy. I need them. I grieve my own parents who are alive…I stay trapped in the mindset of what we could’ve been. The daddy daughter dates, telling my mom about boys or life or anything silly and fun that should happen between a parent and daughter. I struggle very badly with my mental health. I think about dying everyday, suicidal thoughts, self harm thoughts, panic attacks, not sleeping, not eating…they don’t even care. I cry myself to sleep. They have never sat me down and asked how their own daughter was doing, they don’t try to care. I just want to be loved and seen and cared for. I want to feel protected. My heart breaks, it aches, continues to shatter by the 2 people who are supposed to cherish and protect it…yet instead they seem to slowly be killing me. I fight for my life every single day. They treat me so horribly yet I stay alive FOR them. It sounds foolish but I would feel so guilty. I just want to be done. I don’t want to fight anymore. I can’t keep my head above the water. I mean does anyone really care at all? I feel like I’m so hated by everyone :( am I the problem?
I'm so sorry to hear you're in such a lonely place right now. Grieving your parents when they're still in your life sounds incredibly painful. Feeling heartbroken and exhausted makes sense if it seems like you're all on your own in coping. Do your parents have any idea of how badly you want to be closer to them? Finding a way to communicate this may be uncomfortable and scary but ultimately worth it. Sometimes writing out your feelings in the form of a letter can be helpful in preventing conflict or misunderstanding. If you are having thoughts of hurting yourself please call or text 988 for emergency help. We're always available through our app or by calling/texting 888-222-2228 if you'd like more support with this!
I want you to know that you’re not alone in feeling this way, and it’s really brave of you to share your feelings. It sounds like you’re carrying a heavy burden, and it’s understandable to feel hopeless and helpless when your relationship with your parents is so strained. It hurts deeply when the people who are supposed to care for you don’t show the love and support you need.
Please remember, your feelings are valid, and you deserve to be loved and cared for. It’s not foolish at all to want to fight for your life and seek happiness; that shows strength. It’s not about being the problem—sometimes relationships become complicated, and it can feel overwhelming.
I strongly encourage you to reach out to someone who can help you through this, like a trusted friend, teacher, or mental health professional. You shouldn’t have to go through this alone. You deserve support, and there are people who can help you find a way through this pain.
Your life matters, and there’s hope for a brighter future, even if it feels distant right now. Please take care of yourself, and if you ever feel like you’re in crisis, please reach out to someone who can provide immediate help.
This is a safe space to share what's on your mind and to get support from real people.
+ Post Something
©2NDFLOOR. All Rights Reserved | Privacy Policy
DISCLAIMER: 2NDFLOOR is a youth helpline designed to listen, help and guide youth in addressing challenges. Periodically, calls may be monitored for quality assurance and training purposes. You are assured anonymity and confidentiality, except in life-threatening situations. When receiving such an emergency phone call, 2NDFLOOR staff is required by law to report hurting yourself/others or abuse to the appropriate authorities. If you or someone you know is struggling or having thoughts of suicide, call 988 or chat at 988lifeline.org. In life-threatening situations, call 911.
