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I've been doing to many things for my age. 11 years old and my life is more repetitive than the cold days in nj. I do piano, coding, art, soccer, student council, tech club. Boy scouts and who knows what. I want to quit piano but I've done it for 3 years. And when I gain the courage to say I want to quit, I get told that I should master it. I don't like boy scouts but I are started so I'm forced to finish it. Plus our idiot of a president who's practically a dictator is ruining a group of people everyday. Not one group all groups. I genuinely am paranoid that at any moment a nuke could be dropped on the state right above us. Every time tensions rise, I stay awake the whole night. State tests are coming up, it doesn't worry me because of easy they are. The strategies they teach us for math are trash. I Ready could be good if it just used the fastest strategy. I'm not going to show my work for 17x212, that's mental math. I'm sure I'm going to get into the advanced class next year but I'm sure it's going to look like an April fools joke. I can barely go outside. Parents are more overprotective than ever. I've lived in a 2 mile big town for all my life and you say that it's dangerous? This isn't Newark or Trenton, this is the tiny town, aka the donut whole of Edison. Most I can do is walk around the block. I literally walked every street of my town. Now that I'm stuck in my house away from "the dangers of going into main street" I have no way to socialize. My only way is using electronics. Guess what's more dangerous. Walking to the news store to buy pokemon cards with your friends or talking to strangers and predators online who could be twice your age.niw by reading this you would think I'm done with life. I am but I'm not going to kill myself, I've thought of it but decided that I've got a lot of things to change in this planet and I have one life to do it. I won't let some dumb pixels on a screen saying "I hate you" be the reason my story ends. My generation has been blinded and I will unblind them. Well thanks for reading my whole essay on my life and what I think.
It does sound like you have an awful lot of stuff going on in your life and it also sounds like you are doing your best to get it all figured out. Have you tried telling your parents that you are feeling overwhelmed with all the outside activities you do? Maybe sitting down with them and trying to figure out which of your outside activities you could stop doing if you are feeling like it's too much. Even if it's not piano or boy scouts for whatever reasons they might have, maybe there are other things you could decide on together to stop doing.
You are not alone in your concerns for your safety right now, there are many people that feel like something dangerous could happen, but that is something that is out of your control just like many other things. Lots of things could potentially happen to you, but you have to kind of weigh out the things that you have control over and make changes that ensure your safety (such as not talking to people online that you don't know) vs. the things you don't have control over such as nuclear bombs or something similar. You could potentially spend your entire day coming up with things that "could" happen or you could spend your day doing things you enjoy and not worrying yourself about things that you have no ability to control.
As far as going out, maybe ask your parents where you can go in your area and as you build up trust by doing the right thing, maybe they will continue to expand how far away from the house you can get.
Its wonderful that you are good in math and don't worry yourself about how it looks to other people. If you can do it, great, other people will always have opinions about things but that doesn't change the fact that you got into that math class by your intelligence...maybe they are just jealous that they can't multiply 17x212 mentally.
In any case, good luck with everything you are going through and continue to do your best. Call or chat with us anytime!
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