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Hiii. So I'm a high school senior. I have depression and anxiety but I am on meds and doing so much better . However a few weeks ago my ex bf and I got into an argument. Which led to us exchanging harsh words about each other. We've been broken up for like two months but wanted to stay friends. Well in that argument I found out he has been spreading rumors Around about me. It rlly hurt cause I never thought he would do anything like that. Our argument ended and he insulted me for my mental illness and I took great offense. I blocked him and planned on never talking to him again. I get called to my counselor office an hour later and they say they're gonna have a meeting with the both of us. I kept asking questions and they refused to answer any of them. I got really anxious and started acting out of character. To make a long story short I insulted my ex and another girl. After that they said my ex put an investigation out for me to see if I harassing and bulling him. I've never done that. I've been really depressed because I told them hed threaten to kill himsekf because I wouldn't take him back. No one took me seriously. It's been a few weeks and I've been really depressed since that whole incident. I have a 4.3 gpa and I'm stressed because my grades have been really pooor due to me lacking motivation. I thought I'd be feeling better and I have but the feeling comes and goes and it sometimes gets really bad. I don't know what to do. I feel so guilty and I hate myself.