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Last year, I was sexually assaulted, and I can’t get the thought out of my head. I was only 13 at the time, and it is really starting to hurt. My parents and therapists know, but im too scared to bring it up, because last time I did I was threatened by my parents with having the police called on me. I just don’t know what to do anymore. I’m also trying to look more masculine, as I want to be a boy, and I want to transition, but my parents don’t support me. I secretly have a girlfriend as well. I’m in Arizona now, and I obviously have to wear shorts and have a bathing suit and what not, and im so scared that it is going to happen again. Anytime someone touches me I flinch and get flash backs, I just don’t know what to do anymore, and it doesn’t help that I have a pretty big online presence in a fandom, Cobra Kai. Someone had written me through a nameless account telling me that they would rape me, and went on to talk about how I was sexually assaulted in the past, and now I’m too scared to touch my phone, I don’t know how I got the courage to post this. I just need help, but im too scared to reach out.
I’m so sorry to hear this. That is absolutely awful and a very traumatic experience. I hope that person received heavy consequences. You are really brave to reach out. I’m sure it was difficult. I’m glad to hear you are in therapy, but do not understand clearly why you can’t talk about it. Are you scared because your parents will get mad if you do or are you just scared to talk about it in general? Because that is the best place to start your healing process. Another idea is self help books that you can read too if you are up for that. Also, can the person online be reported or traced since they made a threatening comment to you? It sounds like you have a lot on your plate and need support. Taking the first step is always the most difficult and you’ve done that so now you just keep going for yourself. We can talk to you about this in more detail through messaging on our app, which could be an easy next step. We also have a helpline available but I understand that may be more difficult. Just so you have it, our number is 888-222-2228. Both communications are available 24/7. Please reach out. Thank you for your post.
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