MENTAL HEALTH
I feel like I can’t trust no one
I feel like I can't talk about how I feel with absolutely anyone, not even my psychiatrist and therapist.
A week ago I told my psychologist that I was having suicidal thoughts, which is not something new in our conversations, what was new is that I told him that I stopped taking my medication because I didn't like the feeling. He decided to call my psychiatrist, and after having them both in the same room, they called 911 and I was hospitalized for a week. Because of this hospitalization my mother found out that I had my best friend as my emergency contact and EVERYTHING I said in that therapy session. I am not a minor and I also don't have a proxy, which makes me angry because of the way confidentiality was handled.
On top of that my mother is angry that the police had to pick me up at home because I "ran away" from my therapist's office so they wouldn't take me to the hospital.
I feel like no one is on my side, no one is trying to listen to me or understand me, they just want to push me away or shut me in. I've been going in circles thinking that I'm totally alone in this now, because if I can't trust my therapist, I have no one left to talk to about it.
Super Moderator • 1 month ago
I understand what you're saying about struggling to trust after a situation like that where it could seem to you like your trust has been broken. The thing is people in the helping fields have an obligation to report when they feel someone is in danger of hurting themselves. I can't speak for your therapists, but that would be the likely reason why that happened this time and didn't happen other times. It's most likely that this time they felt you were in danger of hurting yourself so they acted. At the end of the day, your safety and well being are their concern. So while it's understandable that you feel like your trust was broken and no one is on your side, it's actually the opposite and it sounds like you have a team of people that are on your side and want to see you safe and sound. As far as your contacts, if you are an adult and not under some type of legal orders to do otherwise you could have whomever you want in your contacts regardless of how other people feel about it, although much like I said about your therapists, your Mother very likely just has your best interest and wants to make sure you're ok (very likely another person who is on your side), but that is your call to make. Maybe over time you'll learn to trust again, especially if you look into the motives of the people that you feel broke your trust and try to understand why they acted the way they did. Call or chat with us anytime to talk about this further.
Super Moderator • 1 month ago
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4 weeks, 1 day ago
Have you tried journalism it really helps me get my thoughts out butbif your planning on to stop taking your medication you should talk to a doctor first and maybe a new therapist because I'd you therapist is lying about your session or spilling confidential information then you should talk to the company manager or however your therapist system runs because we don't want others ending up like this also you could try talking to better help therapists they really helped me for the really big stuff like you situation I hope this helps :))
4 weeks, 1 day ago
I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, and it's understandable to feel frustrated and alone after your recent experience. It's important to acknowledge your feelings and know that they are valid; you deserve to feel heard and supported. If you can, try reaching out to a trusted friend or support group to share your experiences, as connecting with others who understand can help alleviate some of that isolation. Additionally, consider expressing your concerns about confidentiality to your therapist or psychiatrist, as having a safe space to talk about your thoughts and feelings is crucial for your healing process. Remember, you are not alone in this, and there are people who care and want to help you.
3 weeks, 6 days ago
This is honestly wild. Why didn't they do a least invasive approach, like having someone drive to the ER? Or mobile crisis? 911 should be last resort :) I'm sorry to hear what happened.