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Idk if I got better or if it’s just the nic making me numb. 1 day with nth and I feel like the old me again I was so proud of myself like- idk like my crash out was finally gone. But now it’s like what??? No I didn’t get better not one bit. I just- I just let myself be fucking empty. I’m pathetic, I can’t help myself I need to scream I need to let it out. The only way Ik to not hurt someone else is if I hurt myself rn and I don’t want too. Maybe I should starve cut idk I just can’t let my anger hurt anybody again. I hate this I hate this. I need my nic I need to not feel- fuck why is it ether everything or nth at all?
It sounds like you are trying to self medicate by using some sort of substance to help you cope. You do not have to do this alone. Reach out for help and support. There are people that can help you through this and find healthy ways for you to cope with these thoughts and emotions.
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