Dating
There's so much I want to say. Maybe it's just me and I just suck with guys but I don't want to feel this way anymore. I feel like if I go too far into the relationship something bad will happen like in normally has. I'm scared to go after the ones I like and I cry a lot in my room. All the guys I've been with were terrible except for one, and I regret breaking up with him 6 months ago. I got with most the guys just because they made me feel better but I don't think any of them really truly loved me except for him. One of the guys would call me names and say stuff about me and it made me upset, and another one would force me to do things with them. I just don't want to feel like I can't love someone else just because of what's happened to me and it's so hard to talk about. I wish I could be happy.