School
Hi I'm taking time out of my multiple hours of hw to write this but i have been becoming more and more stressed lately. This year I am a junior and have chose to take 2 ap classes that looking back I was mostly just taking to be like my siblings who had taken them. I'm really disappointed in my grades and work ethic because to start the subjects I had chosen were not my strong suit. now I'm literally buried in work and I'm still not understanding it. I put everything off till the last minute because I stress about doing it so much that I am mentally exhausted by the time I actually get around to doing the work. This has caused even the grades in my easier classes to become worse . I wish I could just quit them or stop caring but then my grades will be bad my gpa will be bad and everything counts junior year for college! The sats are coming up and I have to study for that to and it is becoming way to much for me to handle. I have quit my sports because teachers are so demanding for me to stay after school and think I am not trying. I dread going back everymorning and even when I get home I just worry about the next day. Im always sad because of this and I feel like I cannot focus when I am doing my schoolwork so I end up sitting and doing homework from the time I get home to the time I go to bed. Everything in my life has been revolved around school and for someone like me who needs time to themselves more this is very difficult. I don't sleep well and I look like I'm half asleep when I wake up. I don't have many friends and I don't enjoy many of the things I used to like doing because I know that instead of doing things like my sports I could be studying. And not having those things in my life anymore make me sadder. Not to mention I feel worse when I see that some students in my classes have more AP classes then I do and have no problem getting a's in all of them. I feel like I'm not doing anything good enough or trying hard enough. I feel like I could spend more time doing school work but I'm just sick of the endless hours of it. I'm just really overwhelmed with a lot of things in my life right now even outside my schoolwork and I don't even know where to begin to fix them. I have a chem test that I'm going to fail just like the last 3 of them tomorrow so I better go to sleep now...