School
This school year feels so tiring on so many levels. My grades are going to shit and I dont know what to do. I literally feel anxious about everything including my grades. I keep struggling to keep up and it keeps going down. I hate how in highschool you have to have your whole future decided out and if you don’t you’re fucked. I always feel like I have no idea as to what I’m doing. I’ve done all the study, asked for help, and asked for extensions. I also hate the fact that I feel like all my friends are drifting. I feel like I don’t even have a solid friend group or a support system that I can reach out to without feeling like I’m being a baby or I’m being childish. I always feel like I’m just watching from the outside and everyone knows what they’re doing. Everyone has that passion they can rely on, or some sort of drive that keeps them going. It’s so hard to feel like my whole life amounts to nothing. I’ve done nothing special or no accomplishments that I can boast about, everything I do just feels fake for some reason. I just feel so tired. I constantly feel nauseous and disconnected from my body. As corny as it sounds I don’t have a strong desire to be here anymore.