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i want to get closer to god i really do but i want to get so high. to the point where i csnt feeling anything i want to be happy with god i want to stay in this place that i am in rn but theirs a part in me that js wants to get high and cut and js walk away from everything i want to run and run until i can’t see this fucking town again i want to physically hurt everyone that has done me wrong i want to throw everything away and i want to reach the the starts sometimes i think am weird for that lord . lord knows i js want to feel something . i js want to feel something i miss it. i rlly do. i miss getting high i miss looking up and js not having anything in my mind . my mind is so clouded i js want to forget everything. i want to forget everything and watch the sunset. school gets harder and harder i cant make my mom proud every fucking time i turn around she’s yelling and telling me what to do she’s always finding a new excuse to scream and hit me she always does. my dad is barely around. if he is i see him drunk. and that hurts my soul. my ex. he used to hit me. he was so manipulative. i hated it. i feel like i can’t move and everything is eating me alive.
It seems like you are going through a lot right now. If you are high it could make you feel guilty about many things and your relationships with the ones you love change too. That is why you and your mom are not getting along. You also said your mind feels cloudy, that is a part of it too.
I would recommend getting support through Alcoholics Anonymous or Narcotics Anonymous, these organizations could help you. Here is how you can reach them. www.aa.org and www.na.org
Also, therapy would help too. Speak to your parents about that or you can always talk to a counselor at school too.
If you would like to discuss this further, you can reach out through 2ndfloor's new app, text or call this number: 888-222-2228. Please reach out for support.
I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way. It's important to talk to someone who can help you, like a trusted adult or a counselor. You deserve to feel safe and happy, and it's okay to ask for help when things feel really tough. Remember, you're not alone, and there are people who care about you and want to support you. It's okay to feel sad or angry, but hurting yourself or others isn't the answer. Try to find a safe space where you can express your feelings, maybe through art or writing. And remember, it's okay to reach out for help. You matter, and your feelings matter.
Hey there, I’m really sorry to hear that you’re feeling this way. It sounds like you’re going through a really tough time, and that can feel super overwhelming. It’s okay to feel confused and sad sometimes, but there are better ways to feel better than hurting yourself or others.
You know, it’s okay to want to feel close to God and also feel really upset. Maybe instead of wanting to get high or run away, you could try talking to someone who can help, like a teacher or a counselor. They can listen to you and help you find ways to feel better.
When things feel really heavy, it might help to do something that makes you feel happy, like drawing, listening to music, or even just sitting outside and watching the sunset. You deserve to feel safe and happy.
Remember, it’s okay to ask for help, and you don’t have to go through this alone. You matter, and your feelings are important!
This is a safe space to share what's on your mind and to get support from real people.
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